Satisfied With Stability?

The news yesterday should be measured against expectations. Depending on what we/you hoped for or expected, it could be good or not so good, but definitely not bad. Thirty days after transplant, the IGGs haven't moved. They're in the low 1900s, and were at 1875 in early March when this latest treatment started. (normal being between 600 and 1600) I had a bone marrow biopsy today and we'll have a bit more information next week. So what does this mean? Any reduction in IGGs would be caused, at this juncture, primarily by the high dose chemo I received prior to transplant. That didn't happen. The main chemo drug was melphalan. That was the main drug in my first transplant and also a key drug in my second transplant. We know how well that worked in those transplants. NOT. I repeatedly told Dr. B in Arkansas that melphalan did not work with me and my concerns were dismissed because, I was told, melphalan would given along with 8 other drugs. Those 8 other drugs didn't do anything to my disease either, other than make it even angrier than it already was. And, of course, the combo package made me extremely sick.

I told Dr. G. that melphalan does not work with my disease. At least he acknowledged my concern but told me melphalan is in every myeloma protocol they use and that the allo transplant would also have my brother's cells to work with. How is it that I know what won't work with me but the docs don't, or refuse to believe I could know such stuff? Yes, I'm frustrated. That being said, it's probably fair to say there isn't a chemo drug that could be given in high dose that would work with me, since I received every possible drug in Arkansas and nothing worked. As Dr. Rifkin noted upon my return from Arkansas, we need to use a little more finesse with my treatment.


Dr. G's spin on my IGGs is that my disease has been stable for more than 2 months and that is nothing to dismiss. In that he is correct, as my experience in Arkansas was that after about 2 to 4 weeks of each of the 3 high dose chemo treatments I received the myeloma counts started rising again. Dr. B's flame throwing super beam plus couldn't even stabilize my disease! Also, we won't know the full effect of the pre transplant chemo until 90 days post transplant, so downward movement could still occur in the next couple of months. Stable disease is definitely better than raging disease.


All is not lost, however. Because I have Mike's cells, they stand at the ready to attack this myeloma. They haven't been highly active in that fight because the anti rejection drugs mask my cells. So the plan is to start weaning me off the anti rejection drugs in about 3 weeks, being careful not to let graph host disease set in. Once off the anti rejection drugs, I'll get another infusion of Mike's cells and start on a low dose of revlimid. I asked Dr. G if remission is still possible. After a long pause he said, "I'm going to say yes. Definitely." I'm not sure what to make of that. Not to put the pressure on, buy I'm still counting on you, Mike.


Susan's expectations were higher than mine. She looked at me and said, "I was hoping for a miracle." My response: "Don't ignore the miracle standing right here in front of you. It's been five years and I'm still here." The anxiety of all this has taken its toll as she came down today with a nasty bladder infection. When it rains it pours.


On a more positive note, my counts continue to be very good and stable. I'm also getting some energy back and haven't slept 18 hrs a day for at least the last 4 days. I'm probably down to 12 hrs. a day. We go into the clinic a little less frequently, which is nice, especially since we now get the weekends off.